When you finally feel peace flood into your heart, actual peace that could only come from God, your life instantly changes.
I have always “trusted” God to get me through life but this was different, this time I actually opened up my entire heart and asked, quite frankly begged, for Him to use me as His instrument because even in my wonderfully blessed life, I felt empty… the only thing that filled my heart was anxiety, worry, fear, and everything God tells us, through scripture, to avoid.
As a military wife, fear and anxiety seem even easier to come across than maybe in a “normal” working situation. Growing up military I truly loved every minute and I now see that was a gift from our mother because she never once stopped living life even when she was lonely, worried, stressed, or out of her element. And now as the mother, I am finding it is not as easy as it had seemed from a child’s perspective.
So this is where God came in… I felt I had been chasing Him for years but I realized He had really been chasing ME! Patiently waiting for me to come to the realization that I couldn’t do this alone nor did I need to. He was telling me to come to Him in my worry and trust Him. When I eventually had so many burdens I couldn’t carry on my own and most certainly didn’t want to hand off to my family or friends because it was just too heavy, I finally fell… right at the feet of our Lord… Who gladly took those burdens from me. The relief was great and I felt more love for and closer to our Lord than ever before.